My new name is "So Sad". It's "So Sad" that I'm a bad person,"so sad that I'm a bad mother, "So Sad" that I'm a bad mother. "So Sad" that my finances are jacked up, "So Sad" that I let everyone use and mistreat me. I'm just "So Sad". My homegirl started quoting my scriptures. " Ephesians ". "Just stop", I told Kenya. Kenya, God bless her, tried to find the good oin every situation. But I didn't want to hear that today. No, I wasnKt a devout Christian like her but I was a Christian. Maybe not a practicing Christian, but a Christian all the same. "Kenya, don,t you think I,ve prayed? I've prayed and cried so much that I have no more tears. I feel like crying right now. And the more I pray, the more things get worse. So why bother"?